I just feel like I am stuck. I sleep, I work, I eat and then I sleep and eat and work some more. Here I am and it has been days again since I have written here. In fact probably 90 percent of the time I am writing, it is about not writing.
I went to the tarot group. I got a reading and it said I should write more. Last time I went the leader of the group said my reading suggested quitting my job would be a good idea. I would be inclined to agree, but I think paying my bills is important. I know. Jump and the net will appear, right? It isn’t just that I don’t believe in a net, which is true. I don’t even know what the net would be for me right now. Make money writing – we see how well that is going. Make money off tarot, astrology readings. I have done so in the past, but limited amounts and I don’t like it.
The thing about me and tarot, astrology, whatever is I like doing the readings. But, in some ways it is like the weather. Sure the weather person can tell you it will rain, or it will be sunny. But what about the element of surprise in life? What about getting yourself to the point where you greet the sun and the rain with an equal passion, and you don’t care what the weather is every day. What about living a life where you don’t need to ask questions about the future, you don’t need to ask questions about what is the right choice. Because you accept the future as unknown, and accept whatever the future holds will be a blessing and when it comes you will be happy. And you are prepared to deal with life’s challenges, without knowing they are coming. Because guess what, they are coming for all of us.
As far as right choices. I think all choices are right. Life doesn’t have a goal. If you are learning and growing and becoming a better person you are making the right choice. Ok, so not learning and growing and becoming a better person is a “bad” choice in theory. But I don’t think most people really make that choice. They just fail to make a better choice. And in the end, whatever job you are working, whatever person you are loving, where you live, how much money you make, the list goes on and on. All these things are not important to the choice to learn, grow and be a better person. Because they are decorations on life and not life itself.