Daily Archives: May 18, 2016

The Fool

In many ways we are The Fool. The whole of the tarot is a journey of The Fool. The card number for The Fool is zero. Because it stands outside of time. Like a fool. The real magic of the card lays in this emptiness. We stand before our journey has begun. Maybe we are aware of a fresh start. And maybe it will be a surprise. What we will never know is how far the journey will take us. How much we will grow.
This card is normally placed at the start of the deck. But because of its number it doesn’t have a place. Taking the position at the start the next card is the magician. We start our trip, we get our tools. But at this point we don’t even know what we need. The trip is raw. In the image on the card a figure carries a stick. This is a wand from later in the suits. It shows the power we carry with us from the start. We may not know where the trip will end. But we begin with the power we need to complete the journey. Even before we gain our tools from the magician. We are ready.

Bundled up and looking at a white rose. This white rose represents our innocence. We believe in ourselves. We believe in the world. And in our journey. Soon tests will come. But they haven’t yet. For many those tests will deplete our faith. But for others it will only grow stronger. But now like a child we enter the world. Ready for what life give us. We trust life and the goodness of the world.

The last card in the tarot deck is the world. Once The Fool has come to the end. We find ourselves at the start again. We come full circle every time. There is a truth of oneness we accept as we grow in life. At the end of the cycle we see this truth. And once again we see the goodness of the world. We live in peace. We once again believe. But this moment is passing for many. Because a new journey begins. Back in the foot steps of The Fool. There is a new lesson.

The journey of The Fool echoes the shape of zero. Around and around and around. A humanity we are a fool together. Can you look at the state of the world and not see we are fools. And we repeat the same lessons over and over. But we never seem to learn. Maybe some of us learn. But the path of humanity is to take us all into peace. And until this path is complete we walk together on this road. The road of The Fool.

What this card is telling you today is be ready. Pack your bags. Though it is likely not a material journey. It could be anything. Pack your ideas, and your emotions and be ready for change. Because a shift is coming in your life. You may be aware of this new start. It could be a new love. Or a new job. Or a new house in a new town, with a new love. But it could be a new point of view. We think of the big changes in life so often. But sometimes little changes are more important.

Have you eyes open. And your mind open to what lays ahead for you. Know you will not know the path yet. Also know soon you will be given the tools you need. But you are ready now. The lesson you move into will take the skills from the last lessons in your life. We are always where we are meant to be, if we know it or not. Hold on to the lessons of the past as you move forward.

Even if this card means a change of mind. We could be going through something as radical as a change of religion. Remember to hold the truths from where you came sacred. These truths don’t change. And they will still help and guide you. There is only one truth: love. Only Love is real.

I send you on your journey in peace. You have moments of joy ahead. But also moments of sadness. There will be confusion. But if you carry on you will find the path. Try to hold on to your white rose. Your faith in yourself.

People of Humboldt

My years at Humboldt were full of people. Some of them I recall well. Others I have slim memories of now.

Before I lived with Rose, she had lived with Heather. And I met her through Rose. She was also a student and cute. No cute is not the right word, she was hot. But I got to know her over the time I was in Arcata and we became friends. It was through her I got to know other circus people. Heather and the Humboldt Circus crew were fun in the way I always wanted to be fun. But could never allow myself.

Another woman from the circus was Aryana. She was also beautiful. Like Heather she was creative and fun. They seemed to emit joy. Like the sun shines and stars twinkle. Just a part of their nature. I’d never known people who were so natural and happy. Later as part of the circus crew I met and got to know Teri. For a brief moment I had a crush on her. But she was younger, and had a boyfriend. But we are all still friends, on Facebook at least.

Following the circus path. There was Shea Free Love. When I think of him I think of his work in town. He did shows at the Farmers’ Market. And while he worked with many of the Circus Club students. He had graduated soon after I arrived on campus. Another magical man in the Arcata performer family was Shantaram. I met him on campus talking to Tony Snow. I was amazed by his card tricks. He lived in Arcata and owned a business.

Moving along from the circus to the other circus on campus. Tony Snow had been the student body president. I believe it was in 2006. Later I talked to him about his term. He said I didn’t understand the events. So I will just say it wasn’t an easy time for him. But Tony is a great person. The kind of person who has a charm. It makes him a natural people person. And in my opinion gives him a strong potential in politics. As a student covering campus government I was lost. Many times he helped me to understand.

A good friend of his was Noelle. I was supposed to talk to her for my CASA story. But in the end I had more sources than I needed. But I did work with her on a number of campus governance stories. And for a short time after graduating we were friends. I feel like I made a mistake with her. Well, maybe mistake isn’t the right word. We take many paths through life. And when we look back it is easy to think how another would be better. But we don’t know. For a moment there appeared to be a path for us. But I was scared. When I was working on the paper she was in campus politics. One of the sane voices on campus. She also helped me a lot to understand events and players.

At the end of my first year on campus there was a big election mess. Jason had been put on the ballot. But right before the election it had been declared he couldn’t hold office. Doubts were raised. Some wanted a new election. But this wasn’t affordable. Jason was someone I respected. But I often didn’t agree with him. He was a friendly person. Just on many issues we held different views. He was the person with the 9-11 Truth signs. The one pushing for pot to be legal. Early in the summer he took a trip to Boston. I’m not going to pretend to know what happened on the plane. But he made national news when he was arrested. Police claim he put stickers in the bathroom. And he wore a shirt comparing Bush to Hitler. He was flying out of Boston. The same airport as three of the 9-11 airplanes. In the end I believe in Jason. The world needs people like Jason. People not afraid to stand up and say what they believe. Because he may or may not be crazy. But sometimes the crazy people get things right. They can see things our sane minds do not.

The person who won the election was Sofia. A woman of classic beauty. I found her deeply attractive at once. Over the summer we talked. And I had a huge crush on her, for a moment. We sat in my apartment and talked until the sun came up. She is a very smart woman: she will do much with her life. But her time in office wasn’t easy either. After it got started things began to calm. We remained friends through the semester. And stayed in touch about events. Once she shared a bit of info about a reporter at a meeting. I asked him about it later. He was always confused how I even knew. But I didn’t cover her time in office. I never told anyone we were friends, and clearly couldn’t say I had a crush on her. But I stayed away to be honest and fair. Like Tony, Sofia has a magical charm.

One person not in student government was Jerilyn. She was an odd one for Humboldt. A supporter of Sarah Palin. She came to my notice my second year on the paper. Her group has posted a memorial to the troops. It was in the library and soon a counter was posted by Jason. I loved her for having a strong spirit. You had to be strong to be at Humboldt and not be liberal. She was also a pretty woman. We talked a few times about politics. And she always made sense. Though I don’t know I always agreed with her. She was another of the people I knew was going some place in life. Now I wish I could call her and discuss events.

And lastly but not leastly was Crystal. She was another of the amazing women in student governance. I don’t recall her exact role. But I know we talked a lot. She was close friends with Noelle. I always liked her for being bold. We were all students on campus. But at times it felt like they were already on their path. And I was just watching and hoping to find mine. Crystal is one I remember for her smile. Her courage and her work for the campus.

I think I could write a whole book about my Facebook friends. It would be 180 chapters long. Of course some chapters would be longer. But there is no space to write about all the people who touched me. And I know I’ve missed people. If I missed you in this short chapter I am sorry.