SA TA NA MA + RA MA DA SA

Borders

There were so many borders. He crossed the Sierra’s and ran out of gas. Down the backside he coasted. Then hours later it was the state line. An ocean of desert to be crossed. More mountains and miles and miles of road. But those were borders.

The real border was the front door. The end of the drive way. The day he told her he was moving. The real border came weeks before as he accepted the job. The far away job. Or the day he applied, wanting to be far away from her. The borders were crossed in his heart. Many times, and many times he came back. Would he return to her love again?

The cat slept on his lap as he drove. The radio playing a Lucy Kaplansky song about the road. Clearly she had also done travel at night. Her magical voice was holding him tonight. The music was a hug. The cat slept peacefully at last in the car. But it wasn’t an easy start for her. She cried and cried and cried. Like he wanted to cry and cry and cry. Maybe they both missed her. And all these years later he wonders if Baby Girl misses her like he does, at night, alone.

But maybe no being could miss another in the same way.

Years before he lived in Yosemite. When not crossing the high mountain trails he wrote. So much sad poetry and prose. So many long and pointless hours of cutting his own wrist with a pen. Bleeding onto the page, onto the screen. Into the snow, cold and unwatched. But he crossed a border in the park. It was the place where he learned to let M go. He moved beyond. And beyond he remained until he returned from Wyoming. And then borders were crossed again. There was no on in his heart for him for so long. Now she had crossed into his love.

Nevada is a land of barren beauty. A place unique and magical in a sparse way. Maybe one day he’ll live in a hermit shack off a dirt road in Eureka. Not the left-leaning town on the California coast. The dusty town hanging to the side of a mountain in Nevada. He passed through the town on this trip. And later trips. But tonight it was just a moment on the road. How many moments on our roads we pass through blindly. But for someone else the moment is dear. The moment lasts in memory. The touch lingers like a kiss on wet lips.

How many borders did he cross driving in the night. And in the heat of the next day. His heart had for so long been barren like the desert. Empty, uncrossed by human love. At least this is how it felt to him at times. But she was there like a dream. A well in the middle of the vast plain. Driving he crossed state lines. He crossed county lines and city lines. And each line was a step further from the one he couldn’t cross away from tonight.

Even after the granite valley of Yosemite. The strange orange land of south Utah. Through the dark of night and the heat of day. In Utah the temperature drove the cat to seek a place to hide. And she didn’t mind being wet for once. Like he was learning the lessons of having a wet heart. But he could never find a place to hide. The heat was so strong between them at one moment. It burned like the sun on his alabaster heart. And now he was peeling. One of his borders was slipping away into dust around him.

Maybe it didn’t have to be this way. Maybe it couldn’t be any other way. A voice inside told him to turn back. Cross back to safety. The comfort of her heart. But the clear sad truth was this border couldn’t be crossed anymore. He could cross Nevada. And later even crossed it in a snow storm. But the storms and the cold winds of live were driving them now. And each on a different current. The land he drove across was once at the bottom of the sea. In a time which feels so far away now. But years from now, across other borders so will today. The feelings, the journey, the borders crossed. It will fade as a memory. But she will never fade.

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King of Wands

The King of Wands is today’s card. The ruler of the suit of Wands. Or rather one of the rulers. In this card we see a ruling figure alone with his wand. As the King, the figure carries a lot of power. But also a lot of responsibility. To be a good King, or Queen, means to balance of authority. The King of Wands is a person of passions. A person of bravery and convictions.
Wands is the suit of fire. A great drive for success in life. And as the ruler of this suit. This could be the top. The King may have gotten the authority and the respect so long desired. But this power and respect isn’t always easy. Not just in the getting but in the holding. And at times it lacks the allure it held before it was ours. If this person has focused only on power and respect. They may find their lives empty now.

Alone on the card with the one wand. The card is an echo to where the journey started. And it sends a clear message. There is no top to the ambitions of the world. There will always be another mountain. As we reach one goal, we begin the journey to the next. Like Sisyphus rolling his stone up the hill. While the drive for success can be healthy. It can also be all consuming. Like King Arthur who left everything to fight and die in a war far away. We lose touch with what has lasting value. Unlike the Queen of this suit. The King does not look at the viewer. The focus of the King is the wand. When a fire burns just to burn to burns out the fuel it needs to continue.

With any real power comes responsibility. It is easy to forget or not understand. Not just for those lacking in power. But those who do not own the responsibility. People depend on you. There are tough choices to be made. And as a leader an example to be set for others. In this way a clear focus will help the King. With so many people looking to the King as a guide. Distraction is dangerous for the King. It is more than a single person and a single path. But a Kingdom.

The greatest asset to any person is a true passion. But the King needs it even more. There are people driven from within. Then people driven from without. It is a convenience to be driven from without. Your motivation is in the hands of others. But they will rarely push you as far as you can go. And will often hold you back to promote their own ends. But the King cannot be driven from without. The King must have an inner motivation. An inner passion. An inner drive. This is what becomes the focus. When others are not present. When the storms of life beat down. This inner fire like a lighthouse is the way home.

What this card is telling you is your bound for success. Find the inner lighthouse. Be true to your light. Be patient and kind with others. But also with yourself. You are on the right path. But don’t let the path itself be everything. When you sit in the throne, don’t sit there alone. Keep true to your path. If you haven’t just had a great success. in the near future you will. It could be both. But also recall the message. At the end we find a new start. The journey of life goes in cycles, until we find peace.

SA TA NA MA

Franklin P. Jones

“Bravery is being the only one who knows you’re afraid.”

HARE KRISHNA – Maha Mantra